Prologue: Nearly the end of the month now. No change in the game. I’m losing steam. On the one hand I want to remain committed and on the other hand I don’t. At the very least I need to redeem myself. If this past month has shown me anything it’s that I am a huge gaping pussy. I almost don’t deserve to live, as a man that is. I should hang up my trousers and don this corset cause what other option is there. Well, perhaps one option. And that’s to prove to my wife, my family, and just about everyone else, that I’m a strong person and that I’m worthy of something and that I can’t be pushed around all willy nilly. MAJ Bless.